I’ve faced many battles as a mom of a child with a disability. By battle, I mean fighting for my son’s rights. I have to admit they always take a toll on me, mentally and physically. I try to remain as objective as I can which is what I’ve been told to do. But it’s not always easy. I mean, he is my son. Of course, it will effect me!
It bothers me that my son gets denied services because of his disability. It gets discouraging when people don’t even take the time to listen. I had been fighting this particular battle for over a year and I didn’t know if I had the strength to continue. Not sure if I could even muster enough strength to go another round. I was pretty dejected and emotionally worn. It felt very much like a David and Goliath battle. But while David defeated his Goliath with the first stone, I’ve been slinging stones for as long as I can remember. And my Goliath still stands.
I long for the day when someone asks ME, How can we work together to meet your son’s needs? For someone to say, Is there any way WE can support you and your family? Maybe one day this will become a reality for me.
As of now though, I was in a bind. I knew without a shadow of doubt this issue needed to be addressed. But did I have the courage to put my heart out on the line again? Because that is what I do each time I advocate for my son. It was then I heard Bethel’s Music’s You Make Me Brave and it inspired me to pray this prayer. May it make you brave to fight whatever battles that come your way.
Prayer
Father, you will make me brave. When circumstances are not going the way I planned. When I know where you are leading me. But every door I try to open closes in my face or remains shut, you will make me brave. Let your love, Father wash over me, wave after wave as I continue to make my way through this situation. Let your love be the anchor that holds me down when everything else is uncertain and turbulent. Help me feel it, touch it and taste it. Let your love calm my fears and give me peace. Wave after wave, let it wash over me, as you make me brave. Amen